30 Reasons To Live: Day 1

Unadulterated Joy — There is nothing like a two year old daughter to teach you a lesson about joy. This picture is a perfect illustration of that as my daughter jumps with joyful hysteria as the wall is evidence of her unwanted artistic rendering in our bedroom. In the beginning of my parental journey I would have…

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30 Reasons To Live

  When depression hits it’s hard to find a reason to breath and it’s times like that when I need a reason to live. — When I’m in the thick of my depression it’s hard for me not to dwell on the negative in my life. My eyes and thoughts are easily caught up in the reasons why…

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Why I’m Not Ashamed Of My Mental Illness

After talking with my future father-in-law for the first time I realized I was no longer ashamed about my mental illness. — It wasn’t the way I planned it but here I was sitting across from my future father-in-law. He had just flew in from Hilo and was prepared to learn more about me. The good,…

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How Three Mothers Changed My Life

Some of us are lucky to have one mother and for others  they are blessed to have many. — In honor of Mother’s Day I’ve decided to write a post about the three most important women in my life. These women have shaped who I am and in their own way taught me what it means to…

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What Does It Feel Like For Children When Parents Fight?

As a kid I witnessed many conflicts between my parents and because of that a poem was born. — When I was a kid and living with my parents I witnessed many arguments. Some of these disagreements would end quickly while others would drag on and cursing could lead to threats and that could lead…

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What I Learned From Getting My Tooth Knocked Out At A Baseball Game

Sometimes the best thing you can do in life is pull back especially when there’s a line drive heading for your face. — In life you need to know when to push (try hard) and when to pull back (take it easy). There is no better example of this then the day I loss my front tooth…

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Why I Haven’t Visited My Father In Jail

Struggling with the motivation to visit my father in prison I wonder why I no longer care. — It’s been around 7 months since I learned that my father was being housed at the correctional facility on the Big Island. At first I was gun ho about seeing him and making sure he met his granddaughters but…

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